Baby I Need Your Lovin'

Alexandria, VA: Some see cobblestones, I see hearts

Ahhhhhh travel. It never fails to give me a new perspective.

At my massage the other day, the therapist told me that the man I've been crushing on is emotionally unavailable.

To some degree, I think she's projecting, and to some degree, I think she's right.

But it wasn't until I got on an airplane yesterday that I could really feel that she was right and what's more, that it didn't matter, because there's no scarcity of people to love (and be loved by) out there.

There I was, seated next to this handsome young hottie, and it was all I could do not to move on over into his lap. There's something about being that close to an attractive man that brings out the part of me that really, really, wants and need physical contact from the opposite sex.

Sing it Four Tops:

Baby, I need your lovin'
Baby, I need your lovin'
Although you're never near
Your voice I often hear
Another day, 'nother night
I long to hold you tight
'Cause I'm so lonely

Baby, I need your lovin'
Got to have all your lovin'
Baby I need your lovin'
Got to have all you lovin'

Some say it's a sign of weakness
For a man to beg
Then weak I'd rather be
If it means having you to keep
'Cause lately I've been losing sleep

Baby, I need your lovin'
Got to have all your lovin'
Baby I need your lovin'
Got to have all you lovin'

Lonely nights echo your name
Oh, sometimes I wonder
Will I ever be the same?
Oh yeah! When you see me smiling
You know things have gotten worse
Any smile you might see has all been rehearsed
Darling, I can't go on without you
This emptiness won't let me live without you
This loneliness inside, darling
Makes me feel half alive

Baby, I need your lovin'
Got to have all your lovin'
Baby I need your lovin'
Got to have all you lovin'
Baby, I need your lovin'
Got to have all your lovin'

I really do got to, and here's what this trip to Alexandria has taught me: I don't need to fixate on one person to satisfy those needs. All I have to do is know that I can draw the love to me that I am ready and willing to give.

That and, as I learned in my yoga class this morning, I need to find the balance between an open heart and a strong back. Both are needed for health and happiness, physically and emotinally...

I Can't Help Myself (Sugar Pie Honey Bunch)

After I put my kids in bed tonight, I went downstairs to put in a load of laundry. Climbing the stairs after I started the machine, I heard this song coming from within:

Sugarpie honeybunch
You know that I love you
I can't help myself
I love you and nobody else
In and out my life
You come and you go
Leaving just your picture behind
And I kissed it a thousand times

Looking at the lyrics now, I see that it isn't a perfect fit for how I'm feeling tonight, but it comes pretty damn close. Thankfully, my boyfriend's comings and goings are based on him trying to establish a home for himself at his new place and his desire to get the things he needs to be happy that I can't give him, never him actually leaving me.

It's a good thing, too, because like The Four Tops, I'm hooked:

When you snap your fingers
Or wink your eye
I come a running to you
I'm tied to you, baby
And there's nothing I can do
Ooh, sugar

When I call your name (girl)
It starts the flame burning in my heart
Tearin' it all apart
No matter how I try
My love I cannot hide

Sugarpie honeybunch
You now that I'm weak for you
I can't help myself
I love you and nobody else

Sugarpie honeybunch
I'll do anything you ask me to
I can't help myself
I want you and nobody else

Sugarpie honeybunch
You know that I love you
I can't help myself

And I don't want to!