New Version of You

Savasanahhhhhhhhhhh

A few months ago, I joined Tantra, a wonderful yoga community led by a very talented teacher. And in that space, I've learned the value of rest.

Engaging in restorative postures over the past few months has helped me heal in ways I was never going to heal with vigorous activity, and I'm grateful for that.

One of the mindless shows I watch while doing chores, Felicity, changed its theme song part was through its life. When I heard this new one, I thought of the new version of me I've been cultivating at Tantra and beyond:

Can you become
Can you become
A new version of you
New wallpaper
New shoe leather
A new way home
I don't remember
New version of you
I need a new version of me
New version of you
I need a new version of me

Yes.

I can.

And I have...

Take On Me

Zoomed in to see the second percussionist from the right

What? Last concert of my son's high school career? How did this get here so fast?! I can't quite believe it. Band was his favorite part of high school, and watching him shine there has been a magical part of motherhood.

What an emotional night! Thank goodness one of the songs they played was an old fave:

We're talking away
I don't know what I'm to say
I'll say it anyway
Today's another day to find you
Shying away
I'll be coming for your love, OK?

Take on me (take on me)
Take me on (take on me)
I'll be gone
In a day or two

So needless to say
Of odds and ends
But that's me stumbling away
Slowly learning that life is ok
Say after me
It's no better to be safe than sorry

Take on me (take on me)
Take me on (take on me)
I'll be gone
In a day or two

Oh, things that you say
Is it a life or just to play my worries away
You're all the things I've got to remember
You're shying away
I'll be coming for you anyway

Take on me (take on me)
Take me on (take on me)
I'll be gone
In a day or two
Take on me (take on me)
Take me on (take on me)
I'll be gone
In a day

Nope, I'll still be here. He'll be gone soon, though, moving out to Seattle and I will miss him like crazy. Good thing his little sister is still here, and still in band, so I don't have to say goodbye to all of this for a few more years...

Radio King

It's hard to carry on a life, raising children, working outside the home, wanting to eat healthy, tasty food... It often feels like something has got to give - and sometimes what gives is spending time connecting with my man.

I heard him singing along to this song today in the kitchen - I'm not sure if it was the Golden Smog or the Jeff Tweedy version -- but it was definitely this song and super cute:

Let's go down, together
3 A. M tomorrow night
I'll take you over anything

Let's go out, together
Broad daylight in the street
I'll take you anywhere

Your music fills my car
Your voice breaks every time
I'm still wonderin'
If I know who you are
I hang on every line

Let's go down, together
Down by the old mainstream
I'll take you over anything

Let's go back in time
Nineteenfiftynine
I'll take you, Radio King

Your music fills my car
Your voice breaks every time
I'm still wonderin'
If I know who you are
I hang on every line

Sometimes we just need reminders that the person I'm bickering with in the kitchen is the one who would take me over anything, and vice versa. We gotta keep finding ways to ensure the romance isn't a casualty of a busy life...

Love My Way

We've been kinda making it a thing to hit the movies on Friday night -- at least while there are all these good movies to see. It's a good signal that it is the weekend -- not just another weeknight. Plus, these movies!

Call me by your name was also incredible, with an incredible soundtrack that included this song:

There's an army on the dance floor
It's a fashion with a gun, my love
In a room without a door
A kiss is not enough in

Love my way, it's a new road
I follow where my mind goes

They'd put us on a railroad
They'd dearly make us pay
For laughing in their faces and making it our way
There's emptiness behind their eyes
There's dust in all their hearts
They just want to steal us all and take us all apart
But not in

Love my way, it's a new road
I follow where my mind goes
Love my way, it's a new road
I follow where my mind goes

So swallow all your tears, my love
And put on your new face
You can never win or lose
If you don't run the race

I feel so lucky, when I watch a movie about a great love, and hear some characters in said movie talk about how they haven't had a great love and probably won't now, that I get to be with mine. It isn't easy, mind you, but it's so worth it...

Yeah, yeah, yeah
Aw oh, Aw oh, Aw oh
Aaaaaa, Aaaaaa, Aaaaaa, Aaaaaaa

I Know Why (And So Do You)

We saw the coolest movie tonight!

It was so beautiful and surprising and heart-warming.

Most of all, it was about love, just like this song from the soundtrack:

Why do robins sing in December
Long before the Springtime is due?
And even though it's snowing, violets are growing
I know why and so do you
Why do breezes sigh every evening whispering your name as they do?
And why have I the feeling stars are on my ceiling?
I know why and so do you
When you smile at me I hear gypsy violins
When you dance with me, I'm in heaven when the music begins
I can see the sun when it's raining, hiding every cloud from my view
And why do I see rainbows when you're in my arms?
I know why and so do you

I do know why, and I'm also grateful that being with my love doesn't mean being under the sea like it does for our heroine in The Shape of Water...

Letting the Cables Sleep

Sometimes I don't sleep so well.

I can almost always fall asleep, but then I wake up with my mind racing, and sometimes I just can't make it stop.

This song feels apropos:

You in the dark
You in the pain
You on the run
Living a hell
Living your ghost
Living your end
Never seem to get in the place that I belong
Don't wanna lose the time
Lose the time to come

Whatever you say it's alright
Whatever you do it's all good
Whatever you say it's alright
Silence is not the way
We need to talk about it
If heaven is on the way
If heaven is on the way

You in the sea
On a decline
Breaking the waves
Watching the lights go down
Letting the cables sleep

Whatever you say it's alright
Whatever you do it's all good
Whatever you say it's alright
Silence is not the way
We need to talk about it
If heaven is on the way
We'll wrap the world around it
If heaven is on the way
If heaven is on the way

I'm a stranger in this town
I'm a stranger in this town

If heaven is on the way
If heaven is on the way
I'm a stranger in this town
I'm a stranger in this town

My friend posted this video on Facebook, and I must say, it's a powerful antidote to worrying, not to mention hilarious! Check it out!

I'll Love You More Than You'll Ever Know

I love me some Amy Winehouse, and today I learned that she covered this beautiful song by Blood, Sweat and Tears:

If I ever leave you baby
You can say I told you so
And if I ever hurt you
You know I hurt myself as well
Is that any way for a man to carry on?
Do you think, I want my loved one gone?
Said I love you
More than you'll ever know
More than you'll ever know
When I wasn't making much money
You know where my paycheck went
You know I brought it home to you baby
And I never spent one red cent
Is that any way for a man to carry on?
Do you think I want my loved one gone?
Said I love you

I love you more than you'll ever know, Amy Winehouse, and I wish the people in your life had been kinder to you while you were still alive.

RIP you unbelievably talented beauty.