Be Here To Love Me

Tonight's chefs: Reunited, and for today at least, it feels so good

Today was a pretty great day. We hung out at home more, grocery shopped so we had food to prepare at dinner, rode our bikes to a super cool park and played baseball and walked in a fountain...

The kids at Portland's awesome Deer Oaks Park

For some reason today I was able to spend more time enjoying the things we did together and less time in tears about the fact that our time together is coming to an abrupt end in just a couple of days.

Cooking dinner with the man who was my man was no exception. As we cooked, we listened to music, and though I wasn't previously familiar with this song, I wound up singing part of it to him as we held each other in the kitchen:

I want you to stay
and hold me and tell me you'll be here to love me today

And that's what I did. I held him and told him I'd be here to love him today. And I was. Fully present in the present, even with the goodbye looming in the near future. And it felt good to be there:

The moon's come and gone but a few stars hang on on to the sky
The wind's runnin' free but it ain't up to me ask why
The poets are demanding their pay
They've left me with nothin' to say
'cept hold me and tell me you'll be here to love me today
Just hold me and tell me that you'll be here to love me today

And the moon has come and gone. It is a new moon tomorrow, which I'm sure is somehow fitting and symbolic, but for right now, I don't want to think about tomorrow...