I haven't wanted to leave the house a lot lately. Not sure exactly why, just feel content on my couch -- why go to the movies?
But today my man and I managed to get to the movies. We saw Gloria Bell, which I'd say was worth getting off the couch for, thanks in no small part to its sweet 70s soundtrack with tunes like this one:
Love is in the air, everywhere I look around
Love is in the air, every sight and every sound
And I don't know if I'm being foolish
Don't know if I'm being wise
But it's something that I must believe in
And it's there when I look in your eyes
Love is in the air, in the whisper of the tree
Love is in the air, in the thunder of the sea
And I don't know if I'm just dreaming
Don't know if I feel safe
But it's something that I must believe in
And it's there when you call out my name
Love is in the air
Love is in the air
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Love is in the air, in the rising of the sun
Love is in the air, when the day is nearly done
And I don't know if you're illusion
Don't know if I see truth
But you're something that I must believe in
And you're there when I reach out for you
Love is in the air, everywhere I look around
Love is in the air, every sight and every sound
And I don't know if I'm being foolish
Don't know if I'm being wise
But it's something that I must believe in
And it's there when I look in your eyes
Love is in the air
Love is in the air
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, love is in the air
Love is in the air
Love's is in the air
Love's is in the air
Love is in the air
Love isn't the only thing in the air with this video -- Hello 70s!
Saturday, March 30, 2019
Friday, March 29, 2019
Jeopardy
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| Finally some warm sun on my skin after the longest winter ever |
My man and I had a really hard time talking about it, and in particular, he was unable to hear me say these things I was feeling without immediately jumping to talking about how hard it is for him that he let me down.
Over and over I tried to approach this with him, even sought the help of my therapist on how to do so, and every time I was met with the same result.
It just doesn't feel viable to me to be in a relationship where my partner cannot acknowledge it if he screws up, listen to how difficult it is for me, empathize with me, and try to soothe my pain.
I want to be a compassionate human being and partner, I really do, so I am witholding judgement about how things are going to turn out.
But I gotta tell ya, when I heard this classic on the radio the other day, I thought "something is in jeopardy -- not sure it's our love - but definitely our prospects for the future:
Where were you when I needed you?
Well, you could not be found
What can I do? Oh, I believed in you
You're running me around
Well you can take it as a warning
Or take it any way you like
It's the lightning, not the thunder
You never know when it's going to strike
Our love's in jeopardy, baby
Oooooooo
Our love's in jeopardy, baby
Oooooooo
Don't be cute, don't be funny now
It's later than you think
Oh what's the use? Oh save your money now
It's hanging on the brink
Don't let go while I'm hanging on
Cuz I've been hanging on so long
It's so hard to be all alone
I know you're not that strong, yea, yea
Our love's in jeopardy, baby
Ooooooo
Our love's in jeopardy, baby
Ooooooo
Don't let go
While I'm hanging on
Cuz I've been hanging on so long
It's so hard to be all alone
I know you're not that strong, yea, yea
Our love's in jeopardy, baby
Ooooooo
Our love's in jeopardy, baby
Ooooooo
Wednesday, March 20, 2019
If I Could
Heard this lovely number today, and it felt like a pretty good anthem for what's on my mind:
Take me to another place, she said
Take me to another time
Run with me across the oceans
Float me on a silver cloud
If I could I would, but I don't know how
If I could I would, but I don't know how
If I could I would and I'd take you now
Stay with me till time turns over
I want to feel my feet leave the ground
Take me where the whispering breezes
Can lift me up and spin me around
If I could I would...
Hear you laughing as we go
Flipping backward through the doors and through the windows...
I'm melting into nothing
If I could I would, but I don't know how
If I could I would, but I don't know how
If I could I would and I'd take you now
Or perhaps the anti-anthem. You see, I'm working on being present. I'm working on figuring out my purpose, or perhaps I should say living it because I'm pretty sure I know what it is. This book by Rod Stryker is helping me find my path...
I'm also working on cultivating happiness, and Shawn Achor has some pretty awesome things to say about that -- check out his Ted Talk!
Take me to another place, she said
Take me to another time
Run with me across the oceans
Float me on a silver cloud
If I could I would, but I don't know how
If I could I would, but I don't know how
If I could I would and I'd take you now
Stay with me till time turns over
I want to feel my feet leave the ground
Take me where the whispering breezes
Can lift me up and spin me around
If I could I would...
Hear you laughing as we go
Flipping backward through the doors and through the windows...
I'm melting into nothing
If I could I would, but I don't know how
If I could I would, but I don't know how
If I could I would and I'd take you now
Or perhaps the anti-anthem. You see, I'm working on being present. I'm working on figuring out my purpose, or perhaps I should say living it because I'm pretty sure I know what it is. This book by Rod Stryker is helping me find my path...
I'm also working on cultivating happiness, and Shawn Achor has some pretty awesome things to say about that -- check out his Ted Talk!
Monday, March 11, 2019
Hold Your Head Up High
A friend at yoga told me today that she wished I could stay while the people in teacher training present their projects, which felt really great.
I asked her what hers was about, and she said she was going to sing this beauty of a song:
I've made a lot of choices
Most have not been wise
But I have some really good friends
I've been fortunate to find
They get through the lonely days
When I want to stay inside myself
They get me out of my shell
Out into the world
I am coming back, I'm coming back again
I had lost everything and then I got it back again
I dug myself so deep, deep into a hole
Then getting out was so far beyond my control
In the past I've always had trouble on my mind
I'm gonna take that feeling and leave it far behind
As I go down this path traveling through my fate
Lately I have begun to awake
It all started out in Jackson and we moved across the land
And all the dehydration turned the soil into sand
And then one day they hauled me away
And I was out there, out on my own
The thieves, they came and went
They took everything in sight
And then we got it back again
Oh, I had to fight
And I, then I woke up from the middle of the strangest dream
And everyone was there that I ever knew and they all began to sing
Hold you head high, just as high as you can
Things will work out soon, things will come round again
You see I've got this fascination with all the wrong ways to go
I get lost even in the places that I know
Hold your head high, just as high as you can
Things will work out soon, things will come round again
Hold your head high, just as high as you can
Things will work out soon, things will come round again
They always do...
I asked her what hers was about, and she said she was going to sing this beauty of a song:
I've made a lot of choices
Most have not been wise
But I have some really good friends
I've been fortunate to find
They get through the lonely days
When I want to stay inside myself
They get me out of my shell
Out into the world
I am coming back, I'm coming back again
I had lost everything and then I got it back again
I dug myself so deep, deep into a hole
Then getting out was so far beyond my control
In the past I've always had trouble on my mind
I'm gonna take that feeling and leave it far behind
As I go down this path traveling through my fate
Lately I have begun to awake
It all started out in Jackson and we moved across the land
And all the dehydration turned the soil into sand
And then one day they hauled me away
And I was out there, out on my own
The thieves, they came and went
They took everything in sight
And then we got it back again
Oh, I had to fight
And I, then I woke up from the middle of the strangest dream
And everyone was there that I ever knew and they all began to sing
Hold you head high, just as high as you can
Things will work out soon, things will come round again
You see I've got this fascination with all the wrong ways to go
I get lost even in the places that I know
Hold your head high, just as high as you can
Things will work out soon, things will come round again
Hold your head high, just as high as you can
Things will work out soon, things will come round again
They always do...
Saturday, March 9, 2019
Mother
I heard this song on the radio today and had two thoughts:
1) Wow, this is so not the experience I've had with my mother in this life; and
2) I hope this is how my kids feel about me.
She'll take you in, feed your friends
Her open arms are welcoming
She'll rub your back all night when you're crying
She'll listen to you tell your story
Hold your fear and all your worries
Help you find the truth when they're all lying
Even when it's hopeless, she keeps trying
She's your mother, you love her
There won't be another
place like her again that you call home
She stands here to help you
there's nothing she won't do
As long as she's alive
you're not alone
you've got each other
That's your mother
She fixes all the broken things
When you're in love, she's got a ring
To give to you, she hopes you'll give away
She don't care who you give it to
Where they're from, if they pray like you
As long as they are good to you, that's enough
First thing she taught you was love is love
She's your mother, you love her
There won't be another
place like her again that you call home
She stands here to help you
there's nothing she won't do
As long as she's alive
you're not alone
you've got each other
That's your mother
When you fail her, when you're afraid
And crying in the careless mess you've made
She'll make you clean it up yourself
and offer you a little help
And dry your weary eyes when you let her
But she'll look at you and know you can do better
She's your mother, you love her
There won't be another
place like her again that you call home
She stands here to help you
there's nothing she won't do
As long as she's alive
you're not alone
he secrets in your heart she's always known
She's a beacon, a harbour
A lighthouse, her armour
A promise and a blanket when it's cold
You'll understand it more when you get older
You've got each other
That's your mother
You've got each other
That's your mother
Nope, that's not my mother. And that's ok. I know she's doing the best she can in this life, as am I. I'm fortunate to have so many more tools than were available to her, and my kids are fortunate to be living in this time rather than two or three decades ago for sure...
1) Wow, this is so not the experience I've had with my mother in this life; and
2) I hope this is how my kids feel about me.
She'll take you in, feed your friends
Her open arms are welcoming
She'll rub your back all night when you're crying
She'll listen to you tell your story
Hold your fear and all your worries
Help you find the truth when they're all lying
Even when it's hopeless, she keeps trying
She's your mother, you love her
There won't be another
place like her again that you call home
She stands here to help you
there's nothing she won't do
As long as she's alive
you're not alone
you've got each other
That's your mother
She fixes all the broken things
When you're in love, she's got a ring
To give to you, she hopes you'll give away
She don't care who you give it to
Where they're from, if they pray like you
As long as they are good to you, that's enough
First thing she taught you was love is love
She's your mother, you love her
There won't be another
place like her again that you call home
She stands here to help you
there's nothing she won't do
As long as she's alive
you're not alone
you've got each other
That's your mother
When you fail her, when you're afraid
And crying in the careless mess you've made
She'll make you clean it up yourself
and offer you a little help
And dry your weary eyes when you let her
But she'll look at you and know you can do better
She's your mother, you love her
There won't be another
place like her again that you call home
She stands here to help you
there's nothing she won't do
As long as she's alive
you're not alone
he secrets in your heart she's always known
She's a beacon, a harbour
A lighthouse, her armour
A promise and a blanket when it's cold
You'll understand it more when you get older
You've got each other
That's your mother
You've got each other
That's your mother
Nope, that's not my mother. And that's ok. I know she's doing the best she can in this life, as am I. I'm fortunate to have so many more tools than were available to her, and my kids are fortunate to be living in this time rather than two or three decades ago for sure...
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