This Old Man

I keep this photo next to my bed - I'm about 4 years old here

God knows what's going on with my subconscious, but I'm up in the wee hours with this song from my childhood on repeat:

This old man, he plays one
He plays knick knack on my thumb
With a knick knack paddy wack
Give a dog a bone
This old man comes rolling home

This old man, he plays two
He plays knick knack on my shoe
With a knick knack paddy wack
Give a dog a bone
This old man comes rolling home

This old man, he plays three
He plays knick knack on my knee
With a knick knack paddy wack
Give a dog a bone
This old man comes rolling home

This old man, he plays four
He plays knick knack on my door
With a knick knack paddy wack
Give a dog a bone
This old man comes rolling home

This old man, he plays five
Don't play knick knack on that hive
With a knick knack paddy wack
Give a dog a bone
This old man comes rolling home

This old man, he plays six
He plays knick knack on my sticks
With a knick knack paddy wack
Give a dog a bone
This old man comes rolling home

This old man, he plays seven
He plays knick knack up in heaven
With a knick knack paddy wack
Give a dog a bone
This old man comes rolling home

This old man, he plays eight
He plays knick knack on my gate
With a knick knack paddy wack
Give a dog a bone
This old man comes rolling home

This old man, he plays nine
He plays knick knack on my vine
With a knick knack paddy wack
Give a dog a bone
This old man comes rolling home

This old man, he plays ten
He plays knick knack all over again
With a knick knack paddy wack
Give a dog a bone
This old man comes rolling home

Strange. Can't really explain it, other than that two days ago I did a guided meditation where people from your childhood who you need to forgive or who need to forgive you show up. The people who showed up for me were not the ones I'd have expected. Not my sister or any of my close friends, but other kids from my neighborhood and/or elementary school.

My lower back really hurts too - another reason for the early morning wakeup, and also pain that can be connected to the inner child.

I love you little Sarah, now go back to sleep please!