Believe

Many things about this song bug me, but I have to admit that it was well-placed in an episode of Brothers and Sisters (my new Netflix/TV candy) where one of the characters was coping with being newly divorced:

No matter how hard I try
You keep pushing me aside
And I can't break through
There's no talking to you
So sad that you're leaving
Takes time to believe it
But after all is said and done
You're going to be the lonely one, Ohh Oh

Do you believe in life after love
I can feel something inside me say
I really don't think you're strong enough,
Now
Do you believe in life after love
I can feel something inside me say
I really don't think you're strong enough,
Now

Thinking back to that time in my own life, there was a part of me that knew I was strong enough -- otherwise I wouldn't have been able to leave in the first place -- but man, particularly over the holidays those first couple of years, there were definitely times I didn't know whether I could survive:

What am I supposed to do
Sit around and wait for you
And I can't do that
There's no turning back
I need time to move on
I need love to feel strong
'Cause I've had time to think it through
And maybe I'm too good for you Ohh Oh

Over the last few days, with the holidays in full swing again, I've been feeling so much gratitude about getting to a place of peace about my divorce. I'm dedicating this last verse to all those people who are still in search of that peace, or who may not even believe, on some level, that it is possible:

But I know that I'll get through this
'Cause I know that I am strong
I don't need you anymore
Oh I don't need you anymore I don't need you anymore
No I don't need you anymore...