Change of Time

I had a long talk with a friend today and we talked about the importance of doing things to keep yourself grounded when someone you love is going through a rough time. We agreed that both running and yoga are a support for me right now, and after my big run yesterday, I decided to rest this morning and then go to a 90-minute yoga class I like this afternoon with a friend.

The class was awesome. It was all about grounding, in honor of the earth day just passed, and one of the songs she played that particularly struck me was this one:

Time, love
Time, love
Time, love
It’s only a change of time

I found that chorus oddly reassuring, like what's happening today is only a change of time, it isn't necessarily true that my whole understanding needs to change:

I had a dream last night
And rusting far below me
Battered hulls and broken hardships
Leviathan and Lonely
I was thirsty so I drank
And though it was salt water
There was something ‘bout the way
It tasted so familiar

Time, love
Time, love
Time, love
It’s only a change of time

But the next couple of verses really strike a chord:

The black clouds I’m hanging
This anchor I’m dragging
The sails of memory rip open in silence
We cut through the lowlands
All hands through the saltlands
The white caps of memory
Confusing and violent

I had a dream last night
And when I opened my eyes
Your shoulder blade, your spine
Were shorelines in the moon light
New worlds for the weary
New lands for the living
I could make it if I tried
I closed my eyes I kept on swimming

It feels like that's all I can do at the moment. Just keep swimming:

Time, love
Time, love
Time, love
It’s only a change of
Time, love
Time, love
Time, love
It’s only a change of
Time, love
Time, love
Time, love
It’s only a change of
Time, love
Time
Time, love
It’s only a change of
Time, love
Time, love
Time, love
It’s only a change of
Time, love
Time, love
Time, love
It’s only a change of time

And remind myself it's only a change of time.

The teacher closed class with a beautiful Apache blessing that also spoke to me in that "I am a child of the Earth and I don't need anything in particular to be true, I just need to experience it" kind of way:

“May the sun bring you new energy by day, may the moon softly restore you by night, may the rain wash away your worries, may the breeze blow new strength into your being, may you walk gently through the world and know it's beauty all the days of your life.”

It's only a change of time. That's my new mantra...