Kite

Willow tree at Holy Wisdom: they always take me way back!

Yesterday as I was preparing for my day, this beautiful song came on:

I hid myself from failure and fear
O my dear you're a threat to the bad in us all
They tell themselves that each word from your lips
Or the grace in your eyes overcomes any fall

Over the twilight you're listening for me

A barefoot walk in wet grass: so grounding!

Darling, go to sleep
Cradled by moonlight, I'm dreaming we'll be
Loved so deep

What a perfect day to hear this song -- the day on which I co-facilitated a session at the Breathe for Change yoga teacher training on trauma and somatic release. I told my story, about the developmental trauma I suffered and the powerful healing I've experienced through yoga and other means. It was such an amazing experience -- I felt seen, heard, loved, and also I felt the power of my story to heal others.

And now I'm on a one-day retreat to Holy Wisdom monastery, in the presence of willow trees and wet grass, continuing to heal.

Floating and fighting, like a kite on a string
Till you cut through my tether and changed everything
From the sky you looked small, but I loved you the same
So I darted back quickly to spell out your name
And when they say that I'm just a terrible kite
You'll tell them you're proud of my marvelous flight

Don't hide yourself inside till I'm old
O my dear you're a threat to the bad we all see
I'm beside myself for the touch of your lips
Or the grace of your eyes that can see good in me

Over the twilight you're listening for me
Darling, go to sleep
Cradled by moonlight, I'm dreaming we'll be
Loved so deep

I'm not just dreaming -- we are loved so deep. All of us. And I've been tremendously fortunate to be made even more aware of how true that is over the last couple of days...