The Last Day of Summer

I think I'm better at being on vacation than I am at being at home. I sleep better on vacation. I feel better -- less stressed about everything that needs to be done. And I'm trying not to be, but I'm feeling a little depressed about this being the last day of summer.

Lucky for us, some of the most famous depressives wrote a song about this just for today:

Nothing I am
Nothing I dream
Nothing is new
Nothing I think or believe in or say
Nothing is true

It used to be so easy
I never even tried
Yeah it used to be so easy...

But the last day of summer
Never felt so cold
The last day of summer
Never felt so old
Never felt so...

All that I have
All that I hold
All that is wrong
All that I feel for or trust in or love
All that is gone

It used to be so easy
I never even tried
Yeah it used to be so easy...

But then I had to come back from vacation and figure out how to be the brave single mom, homeowner, and business owner that I am.

Good thing it is not in fact, cold today. It actually still feels like summer, so that helps.

It's also the first day of something for me -- the whole 30 program -- which I am excited to see if it does, as it says it does, reduce inflammation in my gut and reduce stiffness in my joints. Finding out if those two things are possible feel like they're worth giving up most of the things I eat, including all grains (that's right, all of them, even brown rice and quinoa), sugar, alcohol and dairy -- though on this plan you can have eggs which is a lifesaver, especially since legumes are on the no list.

I always learn something new when I do a cleanse, and I'm sure this one will be no different. I wish I handled transitions better, but they've always been hard for me. Here's hoping the Whole 30 program will make this transition to fall easier or more fruitful in some way...