Southern Cross

The kids at beautiful Sebago Lake

The glow of love I had going yesterday carried over to today. I got up to see our host off to work, did a little yoga, and then woke up my kids for one more day of adventures in Maine. I felt positively pumped to be alive today, and I marveled how much the feeling of loving and being loved by someone just makes everything brighter. Although I hate like hell that it's unlikely that it's going to be him I get to love and be loved by for the rest of my life, I did make room for the possibility today that it is the love (not specifically the person) that is making me feel so damn good today.

We'd heard this song when the four of us were driving earlier this week, and it came back to me today:

(Around the world) I have been around the world
(Lookin') Lookin' for that woman girl
(Who knows she knows) Who knows love can endure
And you know it will

I do. I know it will. I wish like hell I didn't have to let go of this love, but I do. We've had a lot of good talks, and it is clear that there isn't another option, at least not right now:

Think about
Think about how many times I have fallen
Spirits are using me larger voices callin'
What Heaven brought you and me cannot be forgotten

Nope, it can't be forgotten. And it won't be.

I don't know what the Southern Cross is, but I'm using it here as a metaphor for fully, completely, truly, madly, deeply loving someone, which I've done for the first time with my favorite New Englander:

When you see the Southern Cross for the first time
You understand now why you came this way
'Cause the truth you might be runnin' from is so small
But it's as big as the promise, the promise of a comin' day

So I'm sailing for tomorrow my dreams are a dyin'
And my love is an anchor tied to you tied with a silver chain
I have my ship and all her flags are a' flyin'
She is all that I have left and music is her name

Think about
Think about how many times I have fallen
Spirits are using me larger voices callin'
What Heaven brought you and me cannot be forgotten

(I've been around the world) I have been around the world
(Lookin') Lookin' for that woman girl
Who knows love can endure
And you know it will, and you know it will yes

Oooh ...

So we cheated and we lied and we tested
And we never failed to fail it was the easiest thing to do
You will survive being bested
Somebody fine will come along make me forget about loving you

He tried to tell me that -- the last line -- when we were talking by the Ocean at Acadia. But I told him I disagreed. Someone fine will come along and love me, and I'll love him, but I will never, ever forget about loving the magnificent creature that I've had the tortured pleasure of spending one last week with:

At the Southern Cross