Thinking Out Loud

Woke up with this song in my head this morning:

When your legs don't work like they used to before
And I can't sweep you off of your feet
Will your mouth still remember the taste of my love?
Will your eyes still smile from your cheeks?

And, darling, I will be loving you 'til we're 70
And, baby, my heart could still fall as hard at 23
And I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe just the touch of a hand
Well, me - I fall in love with you every single day
And I just wanna tell you I am

So honey now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
I'm thinking out loud
That maybe we found love right where we are

When my hair's all but gone and my memory fades
And the crowds don't remember my name
When my hands don't play the strings the same way
I know you will still love me the same

'Cause honey your soul could never grow old, it's evergreen
And, baby, your smile's forever in my mind and memory
I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe it's all part of a plan
Well, I'll just keep on making the same mistakes
Hoping that you'll understand

That, baby, now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
Thinking out loud
That maybe we found love right where we are

Which is strange, because I'm not feeling this song this morning. What loving arms, exactly? I'm feeling angry and sad, like the kind of angry and sad where I play Johnny Cash's version of Hurt on full blast in my car and scream along.

I don't like feeling that way, but then again, during my Ashtanga practice this morning, I could feel that my right hip was able to surrender a little deeper than it did yesterday or any day before that. Yep, it hurts to let myself feel the depth of the loss when those feelings come back around, but feeling them means that they can move through me, and that's so much better than keeping them trapped inside.

I saw this Steve Jobs' quote on a friend and fellow Ashtangi's Facebook page today, and feel it's worth repeating here:

"Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma, which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other people's opinions drown out your inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition."

What incredible advice. And I'm doing my damnedest to follow it...