All That She Wants

One particular line of this song keeps running through my head:

She leads a lonely life
She leads a lonely life

It sounds, inside my head, just as it sounds in the actual song -- oddly upbeat. It doesn't feel like a bad thing, necessarily, but when my babies aren't here, my life outside work and yoga is a pretty solitary affair.

Another reason that those lyrics never bring me down is that they remind me of the nights in Kings Cross -- the red light district in Sydney (yep, Australia) where my friends and I would dance to this song at the KCH in the wee hours of the morning (no such thing as bar time there):

When she woke up late in the morning light
And the day had just begun
She opened up her eyes and thought
Oh what a morning
It's not a day for work
It's a day for catching tan
Just lying on the beach and having fun
She's going to get you

All that she wants is another baby
She's gone tomorrow boy
All that she wants is another baby
All that she wants is another baby
She's gone tomorrow boy
All that she wants is another baby
All that she wants - all that she wants

In those days -- I was 22 -- all that I wanted wasn't another baby. I didn't have any babies yet, and although I knew I wanted them, I wasn't ready. Fast forward a couple of decades to find me now -- at 42 -- with two babies, and although it isn't accurate to say all that I want is another baby, I still dream about it, and I know that my experience with mothering in this world won't be limited to the two children I've given birth to so far. Maybe I'll become a stepmother, maybe my next partner and I will adopt or foster, or maybe I will have another baby.

Who knows? All I know is I'm excited to see what's coming.

I love the next verse, so I'm gonna close with it even if, as astute readers will recognize, trapping a man into being my babydaddy is NOT one of the options I'm considering:

So if you are in sight and the day is right
She's the hunter you're the fox
The gentle voice that talks to you won't talk forever
It is a night for passion
But the morning means goodbye
Beware of what is flashing in her eyes
She's going to get you

All that she wants is another baby
She's gone tomorrow boy
All that she wants is another baby
All that she wants is another baby
She's gone tomorrow boy
All that she wants is another baby...