Believe

Yesterday I made it up all three climbs at Quarry Ridge on my mountain bike. Partly because I've been back at it for a few days now so I'm feeling strong. Partly because I've had some advice about how to tackle climbs. But mostly because I believed I could.

On the way home, I heard this song, titled Believe, but actually about that moment when you realize the faith you had in your relationship with someone else isn't based on anything strong enough to hold it up after all:

You may call it in this evening
But you've only lost the night
Present all your pretty feelings
May they comfort you tonight
And I'm climbing over something
And I'm running through these walls

I don't even know if I believe
I don't even know if I believe
I don't even know if I believe
Everything you're trying to say to me

I had the strangest feeling
Your world's not what it seems
So tired of misconceiving
What else this could've been

I don't even know if I believe
I don't even know if I believe
I don't even know if I believe
Everything you're trying to say to me

So open up my eyes
Tell me I'm alive
This is never gonna go our way
If I'm gonna have to guess what's on your mind

Say something, say something
Something like you love me
Lest you want to move away
From the noise of this place

I don't even know if I believe
I don't even know if I believe
I don't even know if I wanna believe
Everything you're trying to say to me

So open up my eyes
Tell me I'm alive
This is never gonna go our way
If I'm gonna have to guess what's on your mind

I'm really glad I'm no longer in a relationship with someone with whom I'm left to guess what's on his mind. I'm putting out the intention that my next boyfriend not only start out a great communicator but stay committed to us talking to each other so I don't end up in the relationship virtually by myself like I did the last time around...